Pouring My Heart Out Again

When I found out I was pregnant with twins, I knew this would be my last pregnancy because 3 was my limit. I hoped, wished, and prayed that I would get at least one girl because I wanted a little girl of my own. My mother and I have always been so close and I wanted that same relationship with a daughter of my own. The day the ultrasound tech told me that one of the twins was a girl, I was so happy that I cried.

She is six years old now and I love her, but I really don't like her very much. Every day is a difficult day with her. She whines about everything, she doesn't do what she is told, she does things that she is told not to do, she talks back and gets an attitude with us when she is told to do something. She intentionally tries to make everyone mad; her brothers, her father, and me. She's annoying and I feel like the most horrible mother in the world for saying this, but I don't like to be around her. It's a constant struggle with her. I even talked to her ped. about it once,  he asked me a bazillion questions and he didn't think there was anything wrong with her, but just that she wants attention because she's the youngest, the smallest, and the only girl. I don't enjoy being around her.

I have tried everything with her. I have tried time outs, taking toys away, spanking, taking away privileges, sitting down and talking with her, but nothing works. She is still in that self centered world of hers where she thinks the entire world revolves around her, and she acts as if she just doesn't care about anyone else. It's all about HER. I do think a lot of it is for attention and I've tried to give her some one on one time. The last time my mom and I took her on a "girls shopping day", she complained the whole time, "this is boring".. "come onnnn", so she ruined it. When she IS good, which is rare, I try to give her extra hugs and kisses and tell her how proud I am of her to try and reinforce the good behavior. None of it works. I'm at the end of my rope.

This situation makes me so sad. I wanted a daughter that I could be close with, but I don't even like her most of the time. She's not fun to be around. When we try to do fun things, she just whines or acts up and makes it miserable. Her brothers are no angels, but she is just so much worse. I want to enjoy spending time with her. I want to be able to enjoy doing things with her, but she makes it miserable.

I'm worried about the future. I'm afraid she's going to grow up hating me, and that I'm going to resent her. I don't want to have that sort of fucked up relationship with her. I want it fixed but don't know what else to do. She cries when she gets punished for something, but then will just keep doing it over and over. I'm thinking about not giving her her xmas gifts, but leaving her a note from santa saying she has to be good to "earn" them because she hasn't been good. We've tried using the "santa is watching you" thing, but she doesn't care. I think I need super nanny to come and save me. Sometimes I just break down and cry.

Customer Service My Ass

Don’t you just hate having to call a utility company? For whatever reason it may be, you never know if you are going to get someone nice or someone not-so-nice. The majority of the time, the latter one is what you end up getting.

I had to call Time Warner Cable two times in the past week. I had to call them a few days ago because they shut my cable bill off for $7. Seven fucking dollars! Reeeaallllyyy? The first woman I talked to was a grumpy ass right away, arguing with me. I would say, “are you telling me that you turned my cable off for $7?”... 


“no maam, it was turned off because you still have a balance of $7”.. isn’t that what I just fucking said??????? Somehow the call got disconnected, so I called back and talked to another woman who was fairly helpful and gave me 3 days to pay the fuckin stupid $7.

Sooo, today, my husband is watching TV and out goes the tv.. again. I call and the first woman I talk to said it got turned off because I didn’t pay it AT a Time Warner Cable Office, I paid it at one of their pay stations.. you know, a grocery store, instead of driving a half hour to pay fucking $7! These pay stations take 5 - 7 days to post to the account. How am I supposed to know this? Am I a mind reader? Do I know everything? I kept telling her that it was not MY fault that it takes so long! She wanted me to drive a flippin half hour to go show the cable office my receipt! Instead of just taking a receipt number like other places do. Ahem, I finally get frustrated and ask to talk to a supervisor. I wait.. and wait.. and wait... the woman gets on and right away had an attitude with me. I swear to the devil it was the same fucking woman I just talked to. I swear they had the same name and the same voice. This one was supposedly a supervisor, but she was a complete bitch. Like I said, she had an attitude as soon as she got on the line and it didn’t get any better once the conversation started. We argued back and forth and she did nothing to help me. I told her she had an attitude as soon as she got on the line with me, but she said she didn’t. I said, yes, you are right.. I lied, I made it all up, you were nice as pie!! WTF! When we got off of the fun I said in the most condescending sarcastic voice possible, “thank you soo much for your help and for your sunshiney personality, it was a pleasure, and you have a wonderful day!”

Look, I’ve worked in customer service and in sales. I know what it’s like to deal with people all day long. I try to be polite to everyone. When telemarketers call, I politely tell them I’m not interested instead of being rude or making up some stupid ass story that some people think is so freakin hilarious to do (btw, telemarketers laugh at your dumbass when they hang up.. as if they hadn’t heard any of those before!). I only get an attitude if they are rude to me or do something to piss me off.. then it’s on!

Don’t be a fucking rude ass bitch if you work in any kind of customer service job. Customers call you because they are obviously mad about something. Your job is to service the customer; make them happy, not be a fucking belittleing (is that a word) little twat bag. If you don’t like your job, there are thousands of people out of work that would be glad to take it from you.

I'm Happy In My Skin!

Something has been bothering me for awhile now and I haven’t been sure whether I should write about it or not, but I’m gonna! I’m tired of not being able to be proud of my skin color!! There is such a double standard when it comes to race, and I do believe that racism can be against any skin color. Why is it perfectly ok for someone to say “black pride”, but if I were to say “white pride” I would be labeled a nazi or racist? Why is it ok for there to be a black entertainment channel, but no white entertainment? *gasp* oh no, they couldn’t do that, THAT would be racist!!

Why is it perfectly acceptable to have a movie out called, “For Colored Girls” or a TV show called, “Black Girls Rock”. Could you imagine the hysteria if a tv show came out called, ‘White Girls Rule!” OMG it would be fucking racist!!

Why can’t I be proud of my white skin?? I like my pretty white skin quite well, really, but why should I have to be afraid to say that I like being white because a lot of people would take it as me being racist? What kind of bullshit is that?

I’m tired of people using the race card for everything. If someone doesn’t get their way, usually the first words out of their mouth is, “it’s because I’m black”. Hm, no, it’s because you weren’t qualified or because someone did a better job than you!

A friend of mine tried to put her daughter in a better, smaller school but she was turned down because she was white, and they needed more non-white kids in their school. What? Really? Being turned down because her skin is too white? If a kid was turned down because he was brown or black, it would be on the national news! OMG Racism!

I’m saying it loud and proud, I am proud to be white!! This does not mean that I am racist or that I don’t like people of other skin color; I’m just happy with my own skin color! Get over it!

Fawk Your Friday!

I saw this last week and knew I had to get in on this and maybe make it a regular thing??

My fawk yous of the week...

Fawk You Dr. Beetlejuice (that's not his real name, it just sounds like that) for taking two months to turn in the paperwork to worker's comp. that my husband has been waiting for. How about YOU go 2 fuckin months with NO paycheck or any money coming in!? and while I'm here, fawk your bitchy ass receptionists and nurses that act like snobby little twats whenever they answer the phone. You just lost all of our family's business for being an incompetent fuckwad.

Fawk You Algebra!! This is my first week of College Algebra and I think I'm going to lose my mind! My professor goes so fast you can't stay with her or even understand what she's doing. If you ask a question, she gets snappy and says she doesn't have time to go over it again, even though she takes a 30 minute break when she tells us the break is only 10 minutes. The whole freakin class is back waiting on your snappy ass. Fawk you for not letting us use our notes and expecting us to know 4 chapters of formulas, steps, and rules by heart after 2 days for a quiz.

Fawk You Algebra Quiz! For making me fail you!

Fawk You Hormones!! Just because Aunt Flow is on her way, does not mean that you flippin hormones can overtake my brain and make me cry at every little stupid ass thing! STOP IT!!!!

...WOW, that felt good! I need to do this more often!!!

Like OMG Teen Moms!

My rant for the week is actually one that has been nagging at me in the back of my head for awhile now. Is it suddenly “cool” to be a teen mom? MTV started with the teen mom reality show. I did watch it a few times, but a lot of it was just annoying drama. Why did they do a show like this? Was it for $$$$? Or because they thought it would help stop kids from getting pregnant if they see all of the stress and hard times it can cause?

Now, all of the sudden, these teen moms are on the cover of 10 different magazines? Oh yeah, let’s show all of these kids that it’s ok to get knocked up, then you can be on a magazine cover and get rich quick, it’s so glamorous isnt it?

Seriously, I can’t imagine being a teen mom. I remember my teenage years, and it’s embarrassing how immature I was back then, but most teens are the same way. These days, kids sleep around and don’t worry about getting pregnant because it’s the cool thing to do. They don’t think about how much money it takes to have a baby. They don’t think about the sleepless nights, the stress of having a screaming crying baby that wont shut up, or having the responsibility that comes along with it. I had friends who were teenage moms. They missed out on a lot of things because they couldn’t go out whenever they wanted to. Some teens get pregnant and just pass the kid on to their own parents, so the grandparents end up stuck with a baby even though they should almost be done with raising their own.

I really don’t think most teenagers are mature enough to have babies. They don’t have the maturity needed to teach their kid to have respect for other people, teach them good morals, or to act right. Don’t get me wrong, I know a few girls that got their shit together, grew up, stayed in school and raised their kids the right way, but those girls are far and few between. I see too many teenage girls that are just running around going out every night passing their baby off to their parents, aunts, uncles, friends...etc., because they don’t want the full responsibility of taking care of the baby, they just want to dress the baby up in cute little clothes and show them off. No wonder some of these kids in school are so out of control and disrespectful, parents are getting younger and younger. All of these teenagers wanna take their clothes off without thinking of the responsibility that may be thrown upon them in 9 months.

So yeah, thanks MTV for making teenage parenting sooo kewl!! Like OMG!

Haven't Been Feelin It...

My grandmother passed away a few weeks ago. I actually wrote a post in this blog about her back in 2009 Growing Old. I was dealing with a lot of stuff after she died such as helping with the funeral planning, then having to sort through her things. I've neglected this blog, and even though I've had a few rant ideas, I just wasn't "feelin" it, or I guess I just wasn't in the mood for it with so much else on my mind. What better opportunity to write about this subject than now? I'm talking about the subject of death. It kinda sucks, right? Well, for some it sucks but for others it is welcomed with open arms. My grandma lived for 97 1/2 years. Throughout her 70s and 80s she was very active, took care of her own home, did gardening..etc.. Not much kept her down. She really went down hill over the last year or so. She lost almost all of her eyesight. She loss the use of her legs. She had a painful infection in her leg that was so bad she couldn't even sleep in her bed; she had to sleep in a chair. She lost her independence. She lost control of everything in her life. She couldn't read, which is one thing I always remember her doing when I was a child. She always had a book she was reading or would spend an hour reading the newspaper because she read every single article. She couldn't watch TV. She couldn't even see the faces of her loved ones anymore. She just.. existed. She hated life and she asked God many times why she had to live so long. Is it fair to put someone through that? Someone who spent their life being so strong and independent? What did she do to deserve to suffer?

I can't wish her back. Why would I want her to come back and live in misery again? I can cherish the memories we had back but I'm glad her suffering is over. It just doesn't seem fair, especially when you have all of these young people dying who haven't even had the chance to truly live their life yet. People younger than me are dying. I guess life just really doesn't make sense some times and it really fuckin' sucks. This is part of the reason that I don't believe in God. I think if there really is a true "God", he wouldn't let people suffer so much. He wouldn't let good people suffer or little children die. My grandma was a good christian woman who dedicated her life to God, but what did that get her?? A lot of misery and suffering. Just not fair.

((This pic is of my grandma when she was 18.))

A Day I Will Never Forget..

I've decided to make this a serious post this time. I know that I'm a day late, but I've noticed many people reminiscing about that fateful September 11, 2001. Can you believe it has been that long?

At the time, I was working in an office. It was just a normal day until a customer kept ignoring me on the phone and said she was busy trying to listen to the news about a plane crashing into the world trade center? What?? No one had any clue what was going on, so the girl next to me and I turned on our radio. I guess we were the first ones in the entire company to let the news out. As soon as we found out what was going on, we told everyone else. It didn't take long until the owners went out and bought some big screen TVs and put them in the break room. Everyone was gathered around them watching what was going on. Some people were crying, others were in shock like wtf is going on?? Next thing I know, they called everyone in the building together. Everyone held hands and prayed and then they sent us home for the day. I remember being glued to the TV watching the smoke just rolling down the streets of NYC. It didn't seem real; it looked like it was some kind of sci-fi movie or something, not reality. I remember the people yelling and screaming in the streets. I remember a few days later crying watching all of the people there holding up photos of their loved ones that could not be found. Their mother, sister, husband, father, child.. where are they?? How horrible that must have been.

I had a friend who worked not far from the WTC. He said he sat in his office watching people jump off of the buildings. Can you imagine?? I remember watching it on TV, I can't imagine seeing it in real life.

In 2007, my husband and I went to NYC. This was my third trip there, but my first time since the attacks. Ground zero was very eerie. There were flowers and memorials left by other visitors. I don't know if I believe in "orbs" or not, but I took pics of a big wall memorial, and there were a bunch of orbs floating around. Out of 400 pics that I took in NYC, those were the only pics that had these floating lights in them? Coincidence?

My heart goes out to those who lost loved ones in the tragedy. That day will forever be engraved into my memory.

A memorial across from ground zero. I took this photo.

It's My Money! MINE!

Last week, my husband got sent home from work early one day, so we decided to do a few fun things with the kids for their last day of summer vacation. We had a few errands to run first. We passed a man standing on the corner, holding a sign that read, "work for food". The guy was thin as a rail, look like his face hadn't seen a razor in a month, and he only had one leg. His leg was gone from the knee down. He was standing there in 90-something degree weather on the street corner, balancing himself on crutches, his half-leg propped up on one crutch handle whilst trying to hold this sign. He immediately caught my attention and I thought that I wanted to do something. We came back around about an hour later, and the guy was still there. We stopped and gave him a few dollars, it wasn't much, but it was probably more than he had. When my husband gave the guy the money, the guy said, "God bless you, you are the first ones to stop all day".. and it was already about 1pm.

The more I thought about it, the more pissed I began to get. He was on the street corner of a heavily traveled street where there was a stop light. I was watching all of these fancy ass luxury cars stop at the light, then just drive on by. It's not as if they didn't notice him; the guy stuck out like a sore thumb. Did people just not give a shit? I mean, are you really that fucking stingey that you can't give the man a couple bucks, or even go through McD's and buy him a couple of $1 burgers? Why is it that we, the ones who live paycheck to paycheck, were willing to give our last few dollars to a stranger, when some of you pieces of poo probably had so much money you didn't know what to spend it on next, but yet you couldn't help? Really?

This isn't the first time this has happened. I remember a few years ago, during the xmas season, the bell ringers were outside of a store, and we stopped and threw a few bucks into the bucket. The guy ringing the bell said it was the first donation they got all day. Why is it that poor struggling people like us are willing to give up our last little bit of cash to help someone else, but people who can afford to give it away are too self-involved to bother?

I know there are some scams out there where people pretend to be homeless to get money, or they just want the money to spend on alcohol or beer. If you are worried about that, then go buy them some food instead! More and more people are losing their jobs these days and end up losing their homes and everything they have. But some of you assholes are content sitting on your golden pedestal looking down on everyone else who isn't as rich as you are.

Who knows what happened to this guy. Maybe he was in a horrible accident and lost his leg? Maybe he was a vet. and lost his leg in battle? Maybe he was born this way? What kind of work can he do with only one leg? Maybe he doesn't have computer skills so that he can sit on his ass and work? He would probably give you the shirt off of his back if you needed it, but you wouldn't do the same for him. Assholes.

P.S. The guy in the pic is not the same guy I am writing about, obviously.

Pouring My Heart Out

I decided to join in the fun for Pour Your Heart Out (click on the button), because I really am not a bitch 24 hours a day, and there really is a heart buried deep down in there and I like to let it out once in awhile!



I'm going to pour my heart out about my husband. We just celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary a few weeks ago. Seven years sometimes seems like 20 years. We have been through so much together. We have separated twice; the first time was the lowest point of my life, ever. I was a wreck. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, all I did was cry (but I lost 25 lbs!). We were separated for 9 whole months; that sounds like such a long time. We got back together for about a year, and then the same thing repeated itself except the second time I handled it very well, and we ended up only staying apart for about 3 months. We just can't seem to really stay apart from one another, we always come back.

My husband has been my rock throughout most of the past 8 years (been together for 8). He stayed with me both times in the hospital while I had our babies, he took care of me when I couldn't take care of myself. He wouldn't leave my side. I have been such a bitch to him at times. I blame myself a lot for our two separations. My head was so fucked up and I always took it out on him. I was paranoid about everything he did. I would blame him for things all of the time or just be a plain bitch to him. Once I realized how many problems I was causing, I got on medication which has helped a lot. Don't get me wrong, I still have my bad days, especially every 28 days, lol. I can some times be a real bitch and complain about the tiniest of things. Once I realize that I'm doing it, I get scared that I'm going to chase him away again.

My husband busts his ass working to take care of our family. He is a great dad. He helps me around the house (most of the time). He helps with the kids. He loves me for ME. He thinks I'm beautiful. He gets angry when I say anything bad about myself, like calling myself fat. He doesn't go out with his friends all of the time like some husbands do. He does everything he can for our family and I know how much he loves me. I just wish I didn't take that for granted some times. I don't want him to question my love for him. I know how lucky I am to have such a wonderful husband as him.

A Blogger's Rant...

I've had so many ideas for what to post about; so many things to bitch about! I decided to pick a rant from my point of view as a blogger.

I have two other blogs, apart from this one. I have my work at home blog, and I have my personal blog, Madam Sarcasm. I've been steadily working on trying to get my readership up on my work at home blog because I want to begin doing more reviews and giveaways on there. This poor blog and my Madam Sarcasm blog are really suffering. I think the only hits I get are from blog hops and people just being polite. Maybe I do have a few regulars?

My problem? I just don't have time. I don't have time to work on promoting my blogs all day, every day. I don't have time to join every single blog hop, or to respond to every single comment, or comment on every single blog that I look at. I don't have time to promote my blogs like I wish I could. I don't have time to post in my blogs every single day.

I wish I could do all of these things. No, really, I do! I wish I had time to work on blog promotion every day like some bloggers do and get 245083745 comments for every post I write. I wish I had time to network with and make friends with all of the other bloggers out there and join the little blogger socials that go on. *sigh* But you see, I DO have a life outside of blogging. I have 3 kids (a 6 yr old and two 5 yr olds) that spend all day arguing, annoying each other, and driving me freakin' insane, I work from home as a freelance writer, and I'm a full time college student, who has either class and/or homework most days of the week. Oh, and don't forget the other crap like cleaning, laundry, and actually spending "quality" time with my family. I mean, look, it's 11:15pm as I'm typing this. This is usually the only time I have to blog: when everyone else is asleep. Sometimes, I'm just too damned tired to do anything else but check my email and facebook (ofcourse!).

I guess I shouldn't complain because I really do enjoy blogging. I'm proud of my blogs and I love writing them; I just wish I had the time needed to dedicate to them and make them more successful. I try the best that I can. I try to leave comments back when anyone comments here, and try to follow everyone back who follows me through a blog hop or follow Friday or whatever. I try, I try, but damn it, why can't I have 15 more hours in the day???? Is that asking too much??

Just A Follow Up..

A few of my readers (yes, i DO actually have a couple!) asked me questions about what I wrote in a previous post regarding the 8 random things about myself. I'm really bored tonight and figured, what the hell.. I might as well answer them (I told you I would go into detail if you asked!).

Ok, so the Jenny Jones thing. This is some funny crap! I had this weird idea that I wanted to be on a talk show. Any talk show. When talk shows used to be on all of the time, at the end they would say, "if blah blah, blah.. call us now!". and I would always call hoping to get a call back. I did get a call from the Ricki Lake show once, they asked a few questions and said they would be in touch but they never called back. My husband and I were engaged at the time and the Jenny Jones show was advertising something along the lines of, "do you think your fiance is still sleeping with his ex and you want to know the truth before getting married?". We were sitting with a friend that we had just met a few days earlier and decided to call, not expecting them to call back. Well, they did call us back and we told them this whole story about how our friend we had just met was really my husband's ex and I wanted to know if they were still sleeping together. The real kicker is that this girl was a complete manly lesbian. She walked like a man, talked like a man, dressed like a man.. Soo anyway, they picked us up in a lincoln town car at our house and drove us to the airport, picked us up at o'hare airport in a stretch limo, put us up in a nice hotel in downtown chicago, free room service..etc.. I was scared shitless when it was our turn to be on the show! Everyone laughed when the other girl came out, I still can't believe that my husband went on there letting everyone believe that he dated her, haha. It was fun though, and a funny story to tell. I had the show on video tape, but we let a friend borrow it and never got it back. I've searched all over for it online but can't find the episode anywhere!! BTW, Jenny Jones is a stuck up bitch! I was surprised we have actually had people come up to us in public asking if we were ever on tv, people actually recognized us! Oh, I've also tried out for the biggest loser, and we had the producer from Jillian Michaels (LOVE her) new show call us, but never called us back. I wanna be on TV! haha

Oh and my phone. I have an HTC Hero Android 2.1 phone that I just got a month ago through Alltel. For the most part, I really like it. The touch screen works very well, and it has literally 100s of apps that you can download for free! It has GPS on it that will even talk to you and give you turn by turn directions (which I desperately need), and an app that you can use to turn your own songs into ringtones (no paying for ringtones). I get frustrated with the keyboard because sometimes my fingers look like they are pushing the right letter but the one next to it comes up. It has a 5.0 megapixel camera which I use a lot. I watched a video where it was compared to the i-phone. They had each phone side by side and the android was doing the exact same thing as the i-phone. It's a keeper, for now.

Sooo, that's a little about me. I'm so exciting, I know!

Mirror, Mirror On The Wall.. Who's The Biggest Bully of All??

Yes, I am one of those anti-government people. Imagine that, eh?? First of all, I do realize that the citizens of America are lucky compared to third world countries, but I do believe that the United States of America is a big bully. The government is the government; they can do whatever they want and we can do absolutely nothing about it. 

The country has been in an "economic crisis" for some time now. How does the government deal with it? By raising prices on EVERYTHING. All of the things that we Americans have to have, like car titles, licenses, things like that. The things that we can not go without. How about we raise the price double or even triple of what it was a year or two ago? Maybe this is just Ohio? But it really pisses me off that the state government gets away with this shit. You know that hundreds of people are out of a job and a lot of people are running out of unemployment, so does raising the price on necessities, stealing more money out of our already empty pockets to make your pockets fatter do any good?? The government is nothing but a bunch of bullies! They bend people over and screw them right up the ass with no lube or even a please or thank you?! We can't fight them. We have to do what they say. Our country is mr. tough ass country who thinks they can bully everyone around and bully other countries around. Let's just go in here and take over and kill a bunch of innocent people, mmkay?... and the President? Oh God, don't even get me started on THAT! The healthcare system that is going to be a complete disaster? Forcing people to get health insurance? Doesn't the government force people to do enough? How long before they try to control how we think?? 

I also hate the judicial system in this country. There is no, "innocent until proven guilty". It all depends on who you know, who you screw, and how much money you have. A person who has a lot of money can pretty much get out of anything. People are given longer prison sentences for drug charges than rapists and pedophiles. If you are just an average Joe Blow who doesn't have the money to spend on an expensive lawyer, you are just screwed; innocent or not. 

The government is full of a bunch of crooked ass rich people who enjoy lining their pockets with the poor man's last few dollars. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer is so true because the rich man is always stealing from the poor man, and when it comes from THE man, we just have to bend over and say, "here ya go". 

My First Award!

Rants In My Pants got our first award! ....

Voila! Ok, so it kiiinda looks outta place on this blog, but I'm gonna keep it! Special thanks to everyday mommy for honoring me with it!

Now, in order to keep the award, I have to tell my readers 8 random things about myself and honor some of my other fave blogs with the award, so, here goes:

1. I love Pit Bulls.
2. I write for a living.
3. I'm finishing up my first year in college next month.
4. I got my first tattoo 14 years ago and I have 7 all together.
5. I'm an only child.
6. I was on the Jenny Jones talk show in 2003.
7. I just got an HTC Android 2.1 phone and loooove it.
8. I am afraid of horses.

If you are curious about any of these things, leave me a comment and I will go into more detail.

I am presenting this award to the following blogs:

Make The Most Of It

Over Capacity

3 Princes and A Princess 2

Having Fun Blogging

Now, just so you know, I picked these blogs because they were kind enough to leave me some comment love on this here blog! I love comments and don't get very many of them on this blog so I want to show them my appreciation (wow, that sounded kinda sad, lol). 

More rants coming soon.... so beware.

Women Annoy Me!

Before you get your granny panties in a bunch, let me say that most women annoy me, not all, only most. Why? Because most women are catty, attention starved twats that need bitch smacked a few times.

What mostly inspired this post was my experience on a social networking website called myyearbook.com. It's really not much different than myspace. You make your cute little page, add photos...etc.. Every time you add a photo it shows up in everyone elses chatter feed. This is where the dumbness starts. These women (are they even considered women??) post pictures of themselves in just their underwear and a bra, or the entire pic will be just a super closeup of their cleavage. Of course, this attracts men and men begin leaving perverse comments *gasp*. Oh no! The woman gets so offended, and "oh my gawd, do men not have any respect for women anymore??". Like, seriously? Any woman who puts a close up of her tits on a place like myyearbook is just BEGGING for attention and these kinds of comments. I mean, are they really that starved for attention that they have to show their boob crack to the entire world? I don't blame the men for leaving comments like that, they are only doing what is natural. If you are going to show your body off like that, don't act offended when you get comments like that! Derrrr, it's not rocket science.

Then it got me thinking about other females. I do have a few female friends, but honestly, most other females annoy me. They are either so completely dramatic (refer to my previous post on drama queens) and have to make themselves the center of attention, or they are just down right bitchy and a know-it-all. I'm sure you all know the know-it-all type. The one who thinks she knows everything and if you don't do everything the way that she does it then she thinks you are an imbecile and will try to make you feel that way.

I also don't like prissy girls who are afraid to touch or do anything because they might mess up their hair or nails. Get a grip, chicks! I see no point in getting a pedicure or a manicure. I think it's a waste of money. Or what about fake tanning? Hey yeah, let's sit in a fake oven and cook our skin so that in 20 years our skin will be disgusting looking and we may be dying of skin cancer! It's all fake, fake, fake! Why be fake? Be yourself!

I hate bitchy women, too. The kind that have no sense of humor and even when you try to joke with them they give you the evil eye *scowl*. Did someone poo in your cheerios this morning, sweetie? Lighten up and enjoy life. Stop being rude to everyone and maybe people will actually want to be your friend.

Last, but not least, the women who should have never, ever become a mother. The ones who only care about going out and partying while leaving their baby with someone else every other night. The ones who pop out 345682356 kids because they have no clue what birth control is but yet they want to cry when they become pregnant for the 20th time. The moms that never grow up and end up raising bullies that think it's ok to be mean to others and call people names because they see their mom do it. Women that keep their kids away from their dad just to "get back" at him.

Wow, this post got long winded, but yeah, most women annoy me. I would say, 97%?

Twilight.. Eclipse... BAHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I am already sick and tired of hearing about the damned Eclipse moving being out. Everyone on facebook is like, "oh my gawd, i went and watched it at midnight and it was soo kewl!". Seriously? WTF is the big deal about this damned movie? My husband and I rented the first one, just to see what all of the talk was about it. We watched it, and then sat there like, "that's it?".

Then the second one came out. By then, I was in college, and of course the Twilight shirts were everywhere, people were leaving school early to go see it at the theatre or just to stand in line to get the DVD of the first one. "Oh my gawd, I can't wait! you, too? oh my gaawwdddddd so coool!". Blech, you people make me want to slam my head into a wall and I think I would enjoy it more than this stupid ass movie!

You see, I liked vampires when vampires were actually scary. When dreaming about a vampire was more of a nightmare not a lustful wet dream. When vampires were dark and evil and something that lurked in the night, not showing their face in the sunlight... Then goths came about. You remember that, the kids dressed in all black, white face make up, black lipstick, fingernails, hair...etc.. Trying to out evil the goth next to them. I never had a problem with goths. I thought it took a lot of guts for them to stand out like that and not conform to the trends of their day. These kids were made fun of, called freaks and satan worshippers.

Now look. Vampires some how emerged into these prissy, preppy, girly make up wearing boys for all of the teenage trendwhores to drool over. There are more and more new vampire movies and tv shows coming around, like all of the sudden, vampires are trendy and pretty. How the Hell did that happen?? You people ruin it for everyone!

The sad thing is, these producers and writers are making millions off of all of you sheep, flocking together to oogle over these pretty boys. The story line sucks and you suck for making it so popular!

Trendy Tattoo Conformity

I heard something a few days ago on the radio, where someone asked, "Do Chinese girls walk around with American words tattooed on their body?" and I had to laugh because I had the idea of writing about this topic only a few days before that.

I'm a tattoo enthusiast. I love tattoos. I think they are beautiful pieces of artwork when done correctly and with a lot of thought. I love looking at other people's tattoos. I have 7 of my own tattoos and have plans for quite a few more. I'm proud to be different. I like to dye my hair funky colors some times, I have a few piercings and I love my tattoos. I don't want to look like everyone else, I like to be different and unique. I got my first tattoo 14 years ago and still love the first one as much as my others.

What I don't like is how tattoos have become so trendy. Now all of the sudden it's "cool" to get a tattoo. My question is, why are americans getting tattoos of chinese symbols or tribal artwork? It's just kinda dumb in my opinion unless you have Chinese or Indian in your blood somewhere. Did you get the tattoo because every Joe Blue and Tina Twat have chinese symbol tattoos and you wanna be cool, too? What about tramp stamps? I mean, really? Is that like advertising, "hey, bend me over and look at my tramp stamp!". Hmm, if the stamp fits? Now, every Susie Blowhole and her "bestie" (Gawd, I had that word) has a tramp stamp, too.

Oh,and let's not forget the newest trend in tattoos: angel wings on the back. Who are you kidding? Tattooing wings on your back does not make you an angel, nor does it make the other 243058345 other girls who have the same wings on their back. Trendwhores.

Ok people, try thinking with your own mind this time instead of copying what everyone else does? We are taught from early childhood that we are all different and there is no one else like us in the world. Well, yeah, there are because everyone wants to be a copy cat of everyone else.


BTW, I will never have angel wings, a chinese symbol or a tramp stamp. In fact, I'm hoping to have my entire back tattooed within the next few years.. I already have it started, just need the money to get it finished.. and everything on it will mean something important to me.

Drama Queens Suck!

You all know the type. The girl (well, it is usually a girl) who always seems to be in the middle of some kind of drama; drama at work, drama in relationships, drama in the family. After awhile you really begin to wonder if maybe she IS the reason for the drama? It's almost as if some women will go out of their way to get attention by going around to others saying, "oh, you won't believe who did what to me", or "guess what so and so did behind your back". Or, "My life is so horrible I'm just going to kill myself.. I just took half a bottle of pills, wahhhh"... I'm not making fun of suicide or anything, but if someone is sincerely considering suicide, they won't tell any one. It's the ones who tell everyone about it that are just doing it for the attention.

Lately, I've watched a few drama queens do their little show and dance and it's some times hard for me to bite my tongue. I mean, seriously, if you hate drama, and you don't want drama in your life, you don't LET drama in your life. If someone else is trying to cause drama in your life, you cut them out of your life and ignore them and don't give them the satisfaction by adding fuel to the fire! Stop blaming everyone else for your problems and stop being an attention whore!

Is there something seriously wrong with these types of people? Is something lacking in their life that makes them have a need to be the center of attention? For someone to go out of their way to get someone they hardly know involved in their own stupid little dramatic world?

I have enough going on in my life between a marriage, 3 young kids, working, college, blogging, taking care of my pets, cleaning my house, doing laundry and saving my own sanity to let someone bring drama into my life. I decided a long time ago that drama was just too stressful for me to deal with and I have enough stress in my life, why let any unneeded stress upset me? I guess at some point, you have to learn to grow the fuck up, stop stressing about petty crap, stop letting other people interfere with your life and do what you have to do to take care of your own family. GROW UP!

Does Marriage Mean Anything?

A few nights ago, I was watching the local news when a story came on about a new social networking/dating website that specifically targets married people. Their tagline was even something like, "life is short, have an affair". I'm not even going to mention the companies name because they don't deserve recognition on my blog! I am disgusted by this. When is it ok for married people to casually cheat? Does marriage not mean anything to anyone these days? What's the point of getting married if you are just going to cheat throughout the marriage?

This company had millions of users and Ohio had the second highest member rate in the country. What is wrong with people? They interviewed the guy who started it, he's happily married and says his wife has no problems with it. Well, of course she has no problem with it, you are probably a millionaire! How could you feel good about yourself when you are promoting and glamorizing infidelity and breaking up of families? Can you feel proud of yourself, or feel like a success knowing that you are causing other people (including children) so much pain and heartache? What happens if an upset husband decides to come after YOU because you started the damned thing? HA, then you would get what you deserve!

So, I'm looking for some opinions here. What is your opinion on websites like this that promote cheating? What does the word marriage mean to you? Some people think marriage is just a piece of paper while others believe that marriage is forever, through thick and thin. How many of you believe that marriage is supposed to be forever? Maybe I'm old fashioned in that sense, but when I got married it was to be forever, and even though we have been through Hell and back, I still imagine growing old with my husband. Marriage is not easy, and there will be temptations, but you have to be stronger than the temptations if you truly love and care about your spouse. Do you agree? Tell me.

Women and Child Support

Here's my rant of the week, or month.. whenever I feel like blogging: Women and the Child Support system.

First of all, I'm tired of all of these immature little girls (that don't even deserve to be called women yet) that wont let their child's father see his own kid. It is one thing if there is a sincere reason to believe your child will be in danger, however this is typically not the case. Women will keep their ex away from their child for petty reasons, or just to get even with them because they left, or hurt them. They think they are getting back at their kid's dad, but they are only hurting their child! Do they not realize that when that kid grows up and sees that it was his mom that kept his father away, that child will end up hating you for it? Do you not realize that a child needs a father in his life? Even if you think that your boyfriend, or current fling is a good father figure, he's not the biological father. Let your child see his own dad! When my husband and I split up, I was soo angry and hurt because of him and it would have been easy for me to tell him, "no, you can't see the kids".. but I didn't want to do that to my children because I know how much they love him. People like me and my husband grew up without a father in our life, because our dad's just didn't give a shit. We know what it's like to hurt, and wonder about our father, and wish we had that male role model in our life. Do you want your child to go through that just because you are being a selfish little bitch? If your ex wants to see his kid, LET HIM! I know mother's that will bribe their ex by telling them, "I will let you see your kid if you give me more money" (even though they pay child support already), or if you do this or that. Your child is not a THING! It is a human being; treat it like one!

This leads us to the whole child support thing. Ugh. This subject just pisses me off the more I think about it. Ok, first of all, child support enforcement is good when the dad is just a dead beat dad that doesn't care about his child, however I think the child support system needs to be ran better. They try to say that it's "for the children", but they don't give a crap about your kids, all they care about is that extra fee THEY get out of it. Most child support case workers treat all dads (and yes, some women) like dead beat pieces of crap. They are rude and nasty whenever the other parent calls in with a question. I've heard this from many, many different people who live in different counties and states. They will leave the father high and dry with nothing. I know people who work 40-50 hours a week, and go home with $90 in their pocket, because the rest of their check went to the mother, who sits on her ass and refuses to work. How is this FAIR? How is the father supposed to survive? No one can live on $95 a week! Oh, and if the mother goes on welfare, they will make the FATHER pay welfare back, too, on top of the child support! Are you freakin kidding me?? If the father has other kids at home to take care of, child support doesn't care about that. They are SUPPOSED to take other children into consideration when figuring up the amount to be paid for child support, but if the mother whines about it, it wont change. Then a lot of times, these men work their asses off only to have 3/4 of their check taken, and still don't get to see the kid because the mom wont let him! Child support wont do anything about that, they will just tell you that you have to get a lawyer to get visitations. Well, how the Hell is anyone supposed to afford a lawyer on $95 a week?? There just has to be a better way to run the child support system, and BOTH parents should be held accountable for their kids. It's not run fairly at all. Also, I know men who have been sent to jail because they got laid off and couldn't pay child support for a month, while there are others who haven't paid anything in 10 years and they don't get jail time or any kind of penalty. What's wrong with this??

Blah, I feel much better now after getting this all out. I'm not just speaking from my own experience (well my husband's experience) with child support, I've heard the same stories from people all over the state of Ohio and even other states. Most Child Support agencies are run the same way, and something needs to change.

Sex these days

A few weeks ago, I was in school and a fellow student told us the story about her son. She picked him up at school and he said he had to go to the Principal's office. He didn't get in trouble, it was just for them to talk to him about something he had seen. He and a few friends had walked into the bathroom and caught two kids having sex in the bathroom. How old were they? SECOND grade!!! The mother instantly called the Principal who said he was just about to call her and explain the situation. He told her that there indeed were two second graders in the bathroom having intercourse. What the Hell?? First of all, how the Hell do these kids know what sex is? Even sexy scenes in movies don't show the mechanics of it all. I guess there was going to be some investigating of the parents, but I don't know any of those details. I was purely sickened at the thought of 8 year olds having sex! What is going on here? Kids are having sex at a younger and younger age. Tweens are disgusting me how they sleep with each other as if it were a hobby, or giving someone a blow job is like passing notes in school. What happened that these kids think it's ok to sleep around with everyone in the school at such a young age? This same woman who told me this story also works at a Middle School and says that kids have been caught having sex at the school, and that the mall is the place where all the kids go to meet up for sex. I'm just disgusted by this and I'm damn worried about sending my kids to public school when they are older. Homeschooling looks mighty good right now.



I'm hoping I can get some input here as to what is causing this surge of sexual promiscuity at such a young age. These children are just that: children. Do you think it's because so many kids are having babies at such a young age? I know a woman who had a daughter at 14, then her daughter had a baby a 14, so she was a grandmother at 28! Can you imagine?? These kids are raising kids, and not teaching their children any kind of respect, or responsibility for themselves, or anyone else. How can they possibly know how to properly raise a child when they are still a child themselves? Is it the lack of a healthy role model in their life that makes them want to gain attention from the opposite sex any way that they can? Is it lack of parental involvement causing this?


What about society? Do you think society portrays sex as being a great thing? Showing young girls wearing way too revealing outfits? All these young singers wearing practically nothing, jumping around in front of everyone? I can't even tell you how many teenage girls I've seen dressed like hookers, and not for halloween. Magazines showing young girls that it's "cool" to dress like street walkers? Movies showing young kids being "in love" (which most of us grown ups know that it is pretty impossible to truly be in love at such a young age)?

Where do you think this is coming from? I would love to hear everyone's input on this!

High School Reunion

A few weeks ago I got a facebook invitation to my class reunion. I won’t say how many years because when I say it out loud it makes me sound really old! There is a facebook group for my graduating class, however only a few people from the group are on my friends list. I was thinking about going to the reunion this year, but then I was looking through photographs from the last reunion, and I thought to myself, I have not one single reason why I would want to see any of those people again. Ok, well maybe I wouldn’t mind seeing a few of them, but the rest of them.. gah!

My high school years pretty much sucked. I had a small group of friends, but most of the people in my class were either annoying prissy jock preps, or loud mouthed annoying assholes. Neither group I cared to associate with. In school I was extremely shy and insecure. I had my group of friends that I was comfortable with, but I didn’t go out of my way to talk to any of them, or vice versa. Some of them were complete assholes who thought it was fun to poke fun at the fat, quiet girl who wouldn’t stand up for herself (yeah, you were really tough, huh?). The other ones were just annoying to the point of making me want to stab myself in the eye with a spork at the mere sound of their voice.

Don’t get me wrong, there were a few people that were friendly to me, and I do remember those that were. The ones that I did consider to be a friend I am in contact with through places like myspace and facebook. The other ones… hmm, do I REALLY want to spend money and time with them when I didn’t like them in the first place? No. I think I will pass on the reunion. I have better things to do with my time, and there are not enough sporks in the world to make me want to spend it with these people!

On a serious note, I hope that some of these people know what they did to me. Some of my high school years were pure torture. I was made fun of, teased and taunted. It killed my self esteem. I spent most of my life hating myself and feeling worthless because of it. It was a form of abuse, and back then I wasn’t strong enough to stand up for myself, or fight back. I just took it. I hope some of them have grown up, and I hope they teach their children to be better. I just wish I had the backbone back then that I do now. I used to let everyone walk all over me, I was too insecure to do anything about it. BUT, I’m a better person now, and I know that I’ve always been a good person. I do hold grudges though, and these people will always be a pile of shit in my eyes.

People are so rude!

Do people not have common courtesy and manners when shopping for groceries (or in any store for that matter)? I hate going grocery shopping, I really do. It’s a pain in the butt shopping for a family of 5 and it’s even more of a pain when we have to take our kids with us. I mentioned in a previous post about my husband and I having manners and teaching our children manners. Well, we do. Even in stores we are always courteous to others, we say excuse me, and we apologize if we accidentily bump into someone. We also always make sure to stay out of other’s way. We stay on one side of the aisle so that there is room for other people to get through.

Obviously, there are some shoppers who think they own the whole damned store. They will stand right in the middle of the aisle even though they can plainly see other shoppers trying to get through. I went grocery shopping today and noticed a couple that were shopping. The woman was standing on one side of the aisle while her husband was standing on the other side of the aisle shouting to her what to get. Of course, if they BOTH stand on opposite sides there is no room for other people to get down the aisle!

A month or so ago, my husband and I were at the store and there were two women shopping together. They both had a cart and they were standing side by side in the aisle deciding what kind of salsa to get. We had to stand there and wait because there was no room to get through. There were about 3 or 4 other shoppers waiting on the opposite side. Finally, the one woman looked at the other woman and says, “well I guess I have to move because these people are giving me dirty looks”. I snickered when I heard that.. Then the conversation went something like that.

Rude Woman (not talking about me, talking about other shoppers): “Oh, that’s just so rude!”
ME: “No, what’s rude is standing in the middle of the damn aisle so no one can get through!”
RW: “Uhh, it’s called shopping!”
ME: “Uhh no, it’s called being a rude bitch and not having manners enough to get out of the damned way.. You can move over for people to get through!”..

.. She continued to mumble something to her friend, but not loud enough for me to hear…

Then there are the people who just cut you off and don’t even bother to say sorry or excuse me. Or the ones who just let their kids run around like wild animals getting in other shopper’s way. The parent just keeps shopping and doesn’t pay any attention to what their kid is doing. Or.. The people who stand in the middle of the aisle and chit chat with their buddy making everyone go around them or wait while they talk about their boring lives.

I mean, come on. Doesn’t anyone have manners these days? I just can’t believe how rude people are. Sometimes I just end up getting soo pissed off while at the grocery store because of other people. I’m one of those people who can’t keep their mouths shut about it either. If I think someone is being rude, I will say something loud enough for them to hear me!

Get some manners people! How rude!

I don't care about Haiti!

"Shame on you America: the only country where we have homeless without shelter, children going to bed without eating, elderly going without needed meds, and mentally ill without treatment - yet we have a benefit for the people of Haiti on 12 TV stations."

This is a post I have seen being passed around Facebook and through text messages. I may sound a little heartless and cold, but I totally agree!

First, let me say that I do feel sympathy for those in Haiti who have lost everything, however, I think it is damned ridiculous that the United States has sent them literally MILLIONS of dollars to help them when their country wasn't even worth that much to begin with! Why are we always trying to take care of other countries instead of taking care of our OWN country? People here are losing their jobs, their homes, everything they have! Over the Christmas season, the Red Cross was taking donations to help those in need and could not even reach their goal, but we can send $millions$ to people we don't even know?? Are you freakin' kidding me?? So, people are not willing to help people in their own country but are willing to dig in their pockets and help strangers? What is wrong with this picture here?? I am disgusted at America right now and I am sick and tired of hearing about Haiti! Call me callous, call me heartless, I don't care.