It's My Money! MINE!

Last week, my husband got sent home from work early one day, so we decided to do a few fun things with the kids for their last day of summer vacation. We had a few errands to run first. We passed a man standing on the corner, holding a sign that read, "work for food". The guy was thin as a rail, look like his face hadn't seen a razor in a month, and he only had one leg. His leg was gone from the knee down. He was standing there in 90-something degree weather on the street corner, balancing himself on crutches, his half-leg propped up on one crutch handle whilst trying to hold this sign. He immediately caught my attention and I thought that I wanted to do something. We came back around about an hour later, and the guy was still there. We stopped and gave him a few dollars, it wasn't much, but it was probably more than he had. When my husband gave the guy the money, the guy said, "God bless you, you are the first ones to stop all day".. and it was already about 1pm.

The more I thought about it, the more pissed I began to get. He was on the street corner of a heavily traveled street where there was a stop light. I was watching all of these fancy ass luxury cars stop at the light, then just drive on by. It's not as if they didn't notice him; the guy stuck out like a sore thumb. Did people just not give a shit? I mean, are you really that fucking stingey that you can't give the man a couple bucks, or even go through McD's and buy him a couple of $1 burgers? Why is it that we, the ones who live paycheck to paycheck, were willing to give our last few dollars to a stranger, when some of you pieces of poo probably had so much money you didn't know what to spend it on next, but yet you couldn't help? Really?

This isn't the first time this has happened. I remember a few years ago, during the xmas season, the bell ringers were outside of a store, and we stopped and threw a few bucks into the bucket. The guy ringing the bell said it was the first donation they got all day. Why is it that poor struggling people like us are willing to give up our last little bit of cash to help someone else, but people who can afford to give it away are too self-involved to bother?

I know there are some scams out there where people pretend to be homeless to get money, or they just want the money to spend on alcohol or beer. If you are worried about that, then go buy them some food instead! More and more people are losing their jobs these days and end up losing their homes and everything they have. But some of you assholes are content sitting on your golden pedestal looking down on everyone else who isn't as rich as you are.

Who knows what happened to this guy. Maybe he was in a horrible accident and lost his leg? Maybe he was a vet. and lost his leg in battle? Maybe he was born this way? What kind of work can he do with only one leg? Maybe he doesn't have computer skills so that he can sit on his ass and work? He would probably give you the shirt off of his back if you needed it, but you wouldn't do the same for him. Assholes.

P.S. The guy in the pic is not the same guy I am writing about, obviously.

Pouring My Heart Out

I decided to join in the fun for Pour Your Heart Out (click on the button), because I really am not a bitch 24 hours a day, and there really is a heart buried deep down in there and I like to let it out once in awhile!



I'm going to pour my heart out about my husband. We just celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary a few weeks ago. Seven years sometimes seems like 20 years. We have been through so much together. We have separated twice; the first time was the lowest point of my life, ever. I was a wreck. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, all I did was cry (but I lost 25 lbs!). We were separated for 9 whole months; that sounds like such a long time. We got back together for about a year, and then the same thing repeated itself except the second time I handled it very well, and we ended up only staying apart for about 3 months. We just can't seem to really stay apart from one another, we always come back.

My husband has been my rock throughout most of the past 8 years (been together for 8). He stayed with me both times in the hospital while I had our babies, he took care of me when I couldn't take care of myself. He wouldn't leave my side. I have been such a bitch to him at times. I blame myself a lot for our two separations. My head was so fucked up and I always took it out on him. I was paranoid about everything he did. I would blame him for things all of the time or just be a plain bitch to him. Once I realized how many problems I was causing, I got on medication which has helped a lot. Don't get me wrong, I still have my bad days, especially every 28 days, lol. I can some times be a real bitch and complain about the tiniest of things. Once I realize that I'm doing it, I get scared that I'm going to chase him away again.

My husband busts his ass working to take care of our family. He is a great dad. He helps me around the house (most of the time). He helps with the kids. He loves me for ME. He thinks I'm beautiful. He gets angry when I say anything bad about myself, like calling myself fat. He doesn't go out with his friends all of the time like some husbands do. He does everything he can for our family and I know how much he loves me. I just wish I didn't take that for granted some times. I don't want him to question my love for him. I know how lucky I am to have such a wonderful husband as him.

A Blogger's Rant...

I've had so many ideas for what to post about; so many things to bitch about! I decided to pick a rant from my point of view as a blogger.

I have two other blogs, apart from this one. I have my work at home blog, and I have my personal blog, Madam Sarcasm. I've been steadily working on trying to get my readership up on my work at home blog because I want to begin doing more reviews and giveaways on there. This poor blog and my Madam Sarcasm blog are really suffering. I think the only hits I get are from blog hops and people just being polite. Maybe I do have a few regulars?

My problem? I just don't have time. I don't have time to work on promoting my blogs all day, every day. I don't have time to join every single blog hop, or to respond to every single comment, or comment on every single blog that I look at. I don't have time to promote my blogs like I wish I could. I don't have time to post in my blogs every single day.

I wish I could do all of these things. No, really, I do! I wish I had time to work on blog promotion every day like some bloggers do and get 245083745 comments for every post I write. I wish I had time to network with and make friends with all of the other bloggers out there and join the little blogger socials that go on. *sigh* But you see, I DO have a life outside of blogging. I have 3 kids (a 6 yr old and two 5 yr olds) that spend all day arguing, annoying each other, and driving me freakin' insane, I work from home as a freelance writer, and I'm a full time college student, who has either class and/or homework most days of the week. Oh, and don't forget the other crap like cleaning, laundry, and actually spending "quality" time with my family. I mean, look, it's 11:15pm as I'm typing this. This is usually the only time I have to blog: when everyone else is asleep. Sometimes, I'm just too damned tired to do anything else but check my email and facebook (ofcourse!).

I guess I shouldn't complain because I really do enjoy blogging. I'm proud of my blogs and I love writing them; I just wish I had the time needed to dedicate to them and make them more successful. I try the best that I can. I try to leave comments back when anyone comments here, and try to follow everyone back who follows me through a blog hop or follow Friday or whatever. I try, I try, but damn it, why can't I have 15 more hours in the day???? Is that asking too much??

Just A Follow Up..

A few of my readers (yes, i DO actually have a couple!) asked me questions about what I wrote in a previous post regarding the 8 random things about myself. I'm really bored tonight and figured, what the hell.. I might as well answer them (I told you I would go into detail if you asked!).

Ok, so the Jenny Jones thing. This is some funny crap! I had this weird idea that I wanted to be on a talk show. Any talk show. When talk shows used to be on all of the time, at the end they would say, "if blah blah, blah.. call us now!". and I would always call hoping to get a call back. I did get a call from the Ricki Lake show once, they asked a few questions and said they would be in touch but they never called back. My husband and I were engaged at the time and the Jenny Jones show was advertising something along the lines of, "do you think your fiance is still sleeping with his ex and you want to know the truth before getting married?". We were sitting with a friend that we had just met a few days earlier and decided to call, not expecting them to call back. Well, they did call us back and we told them this whole story about how our friend we had just met was really my husband's ex and I wanted to know if they were still sleeping together. The real kicker is that this girl was a complete manly lesbian. She walked like a man, talked like a man, dressed like a man.. Soo anyway, they picked us up in a lincoln town car at our house and drove us to the airport, picked us up at o'hare airport in a stretch limo, put us up in a nice hotel in downtown chicago, free room service..etc.. I was scared shitless when it was our turn to be on the show! Everyone laughed when the other girl came out, I still can't believe that my husband went on there letting everyone believe that he dated her, haha. It was fun though, and a funny story to tell. I had the show on video tape, but we let a friend borrow it and never got it back. I've searched all over for it online but can't find the episode anywhere!! BTW, Jenny Jones is a stuck up bitch! I was surprised we have actually had people come up to us in public asking if we were ever on tv, people actually recognized us! Oh, I've also tried out for the biggest loser, and we had the producer from Jillian Michaels (LOVE her) new show call us, but never called us back. I wanna be on TV! haha

Oh and my phone. I have an HTC Hero Android 2.1 phone that I just got a month ago through Alltel. For the most part, I really like it. The touch screen works very well, and it has literally 100s of apps that you can download for free! It has GPS on it that will even talk to you and give you turn by turn directions (which I desperately need), and an app that you can use to turn your own songs into ringtones (no paying for ringtones). I get frustrated with the keyboard because sometimes my fingers look like they are pushing the right letter but the one next to it comes up. It has a 5.0 megapixel camera which I use a lot. I watched a video where it was compared to the i-phone. They had each phone side by side and the android was doing the exact same thing as the i-phone. It's a keeper, for now.

Sooo, that's a little about me. I'm so exciting, I know!