It's been awhile since I've been able to post here. My internet was off for a week! I really didn't miss it as much as I expected. I was able to get a lot done around the house that I normally don't have time to do! However, now I have to make up for the week of work missed and it's not leaving me much time for the blogs...again!
Anyway, my rant for the week is about online drama. We have all seen it, right? Someone gets a corn cob up their butt and wants to start running their mouth through their keyboard. I've been involved in some of it in the past, but I was never the mean troll starting it. I've noticed that it happens a lot between women. On mothers or parenting message boards, or work at home message boards. Women are very catty and love to play the drama queen roll. That is one reason why I stay away from most women. I'd prefer to have male friends to be honest!
I remember a few years ago there was this one guy that used to talk crap about me ALL the time. He used to post messages on message boards calling me fat and all kinds of names. He even made up a story one time that included my name in it! I never understood why or what his problem was because I had never spoken to him online or in person. One day I came across his blog and while reading through it noticed how he was always complaining about how he is single and can't get laid and is always having to, uhh.."take care of himself". That made the whole thing a lot more clearer to me and now I find it a bit funny. People like to hide behind their computer screens and run their mouths. Why? It could be a variety of things. Could be because they are like this guy, just a lonely loser who has nothing better to do. Maybe it makes them feel tough being able to type such big tough words? Or they just like to start drama and bickering between people. Whatever it may be, I have grown past that and have a lot better things to do with my time!
Online drama is something I stay away from these days. For one thing, I just don't have time to stay online all day just to check and see what so and so has said and then come back with a snarky remark. I am wayy to busy for that crap between my kids, my husband who is about to have surgery in a few days and working. I have 2 other blogs that I write. One is about work at home jobs. I've heard through the grapevine that some people don't like some of the things I am writing about and are talking crap about me without even knowing me. I'm actually finding it quite amusing! I had 123 visits yesterday to that blog, thanks guys!!!! I know where they are coming from. I checked the links back, but Im not going to run over to that site and get involved in it, even though I already have been without knowing anything about it. If you people who don't know me want to talk your smack then be my guest! Like I said before, I have a million other better things to be doing than worry about it or lower myself to getting involved in it more than I already am. I'm not trying to piss anyone off but if that's the way you are taking it then here's a hanky to wipe your tears!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Monday, October 1, 2007
I didnt post last week. I was really busy all week and it's the end of the month so I was trying to work as much as possible. Today is the first day of October. It has finally begun to feel like fall. I don't really have a point to this post today, just going to babble a bit, lol! It's Monday, it's been raining most of the day, it's cold, it's dreary and I don't feel like doing anything! This past week was kind of a rough one. My husband and I were bickering all week. He is stressed out because of his stomach problems (he has an appointment with a surgeon today in a half hour). He's afraid he wont make it through surgery and if he does make it, he will find out that it's cancer. He has been taking his stress out on me and being an ass lately. I haven't been sleeping much because of everything. Things are going better now. We did a lot of talking and I'm hoping we can work through this together. We split up last year and it was soooo hard on me and I'm terrified that it is going to happen again. We have also been stressing about money. We are barely scraping by now, I dont know what the Hell we are going to do when he is off for 6 weeks. We can probably get some kind of temporary disability but that will most likely only be half of what he makes now..there is no way that we will be able to make it unless I get a job outside of the home while he is off and he takes care of the kids all day. Ugh, I hate this crap! I know he needs the surgery but I have no clue how we will pay our bills and rent!
Anyway...Im ready for Halloween! My son just started preschool and they are going to be in the Halloween Parade here but we have to walk with them throughout the parade. Im excited for that! We can take our twins, too..They are all going to love it!...Im not ready for winter to get here though. I despise winter. The cold, the snow, the ice. I hate having to bundle up in 10 layers of clothing just so I wont freeze and having to bundle up 3 kids every time we go anywhere. Blah, blah, blah, I guess I'm in a bad mood. My depression has been coming back. I really do need to get into a doctor and see if they will put me back on the Cymbalta but when can I go to the doctor? lol We have no sitter for the kids. My mother in law works 2nd shift. I want the F out of here!..We are thinking about moving back to my hometown. I have always despised that town and was soo happy when I left there 7 years ago and I cant believe I actually want to go back! I hate it here. We dont really have any friends here. We have no one to watch the kids here. We have already had our cars broken into and all of our stuff stolen. If we moved back to my hometown we would have so many friends there to hang out with and we would have people there that could watch our kids once in awhile. We are thinking about using our income tax to move back and just live off of that until he can find a job in the area. It's going to be hard to find a place that will accept a big dog though. Most landlords don't allow dogs or if they do they have to be small ones. We have a sweet as sugar pit bull that everyone is scared of but he is just a big baby!
I decided since it's the first of the month and I feel so tired anyway I'm just taking the day off from work and I am doing things online that I have been wanting to do but just havent been able to find the time. Just wanted to throw a little update in here since I don't do that very often.
We enjoyed the weather this weekend and Saturday we took the kids to a park by the river. We went on a little walk there and the kids loved it and so did we! I'm going to throw a few pics up just for the Heck of it! My babies are all getting soo big. The twins will be 3 on Friday and our older son will be 4 next Tuesday! My sons teacher has been trying to talk me into putting the twins into preschool as soon as they turn 3 but I dont know if I want to do that yet. They arent completely potty trained yet (almost, just have a few accidents here and there)..and they would end up having to stay in preschool for 3 years if I start them this early. The deadline for kindergarten is that they have to be 5 by September 30..so they will be 5 days late and will have to wait until they are almost 6 to go. I dont know. I'm still thinking about it. I have plenty of time. Even if I do decide to start them now I will have to take them to their Pediatrician for a check up and to the dentist for a check up. When I took my son for his dental check up it was a month before they could even schedule him in!
Ok, I'm getting tired of typing, so here are the pics! (Argh, I wish we could put pics at the END of our posts not always at the beginning..so the pics are up top)..